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Saturday, April 25, 2009
Work at jp and ya met up with the two people, denise and elaine. They were brave enough to go to amk and stay there till all they want, letting me wait for 1 hour +. Damn pissed off. Luckily I didn't manage to cab. Crapped. Glad to see them still alive and ya. Kind of awkward when working because there is a new china lady and I don't talk much. Haha okay.
Am I tool or a friend to u?Freaking pissed off.I know we are friends but there is always a limit to some things. I ought to say. I can't keep this.anymore.The more I keep, I think the more I think I will be use.And please. don always give me a round about.trying to make me happy but at the end of the sentence. That was the main point u are trying to talk with me.So what was the front part all about.Nothing.I can't have a face to face talk with you because I don't want us to be not able to lift our heads up to face each other in future.I know. you are a good leader.Thats what everyone admires.But when it comes to relationships. U pretty much know whose your first priority.I'm really tired of the things. Come straight to the point. Don't give me round abouts. Because the main subject will always make me. Felt like being used. No. I should say used.Sometimes, I pity myself. To be in this state. I know I'm kind of soft hearted but don't take this as an advantage to use me. Because now u let me think that, I'm just a tool to you.I don't want this. I don't like this. I've over reached my limit.So please. don't ask me to be a messenger like once before. Because I'm a human. Like everyothers out there. You don't feel the stress and heat now, but later you will. I am really tired of being the one to pick up the scattered things and wrap it up for the sake of your parents. You have the guts to start, so you should be the one to wrap up everything. Don't let we friends take your role. Sometimes, I really felt bad. You are my friend, and I as your friend should help you. But when everything starts to pile up, I think I became your personal trainee. Everytime has to be stuck between you and your mother, and me, I have to cover up for you. Have you considered my so called "feelings" (kind of err...) ? I'm used once again. no. is repeatedly. I felt bad towards you and your mum. I've to talk to her to cover up and at the same time I know I'm helping the opposition side. But I willingly agree. Because you know whats in me that almost everything doesn't know. I know how you feel. But please try to consider every person's point of view, thinking. Don't make me a tool and at the same time a temporary friend; when you need me, you find me, when you don't really need me, you put me aside out of everything. I'm just so pissed off with you.