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Monday, March 05, 2007
Hey guys! Back to like post again sigh.. I'm just lazy to post larh.. I dono y I have been like that since I turn to Secodary 3.. I'm really slacking man! I dono how to really stop myself from this kind of attitude man! I just hate myself! I don even listen in class and don even care to do homeworks given by teachers.. I only know I'm really a bad student...... Sigh...... I'm a bad person! As a result , your can see my atrocious results, from A2 to like F9! The worst result I ever get man and this was very particular to one of my subject's liking...... E Maths...... Though it had passed for quite a few weeks but I will not ever forget it ok! When I got the paper, I really feel like crying man.. Some kind of hot gush yarh.. But in the end yarh I didn't.... I pretended to be strong on the outside yet inside, it was just like so weak.. Common tests received, I failed Physics , E Maths, Social Studies which I know will be one of them yarh.. What atrocious results! I don't even have the courage to let my parents see the papers and I forged some of the papers.. I can't stand anymore of this attitude.. I want to change yeah but I couldn't.. I have been too like slack for a long time.. As a Pure.Lit rep, I didn't even do my part yarh.. Instead of reminding the teacher of the due dates of projects, I just kept quiet cuz my groups hasn't finished it up so as other groups.. I have no integrity.. So teachers ur r wrong to choose me as some kind of reps or any leadership things yarh. Though I do really envy the SCs and chairmans of all classes and now I know I can't be one alright.. I have decided...... Whatever comments ur make, I have made up my mind.. Sigh.. People don understand me till now like those whom I 've known these few years yarh, I can tell till now no one ever understand my char/Personality. So what? I don even care.. Cuz I'm like glad:/. I'm kind of wierd like today oo. I might be suffering from like depression or something.. Some people think that I'm a happy go lucky person but I'm not.. Its just a pretence...... I have never been sad in school except for those excusable moments.. Most of the time, I pretended to be happy all the time.. Just joking and crapping around like some kind of weirdos.. Haha yarh.. I know myself for who I am , no one will understand myself more than I do yarh.. What a freaky answer.. Oh yarh.. Recently happenings r just as usual.. Tomorrow having Piano Practiacal Exam! I'm not well prepared! 6/3/2007 So yarh tomorrow got to leave early from school to get ready for the Piano Practical Exam, Sigh everything seems to be like so fast yarh.. This Saturday having Piano Theory Exam! 10/3/2007 I know what will be the result.. Stress! Oh gosh.. I'm so stress up! I'm really tired larh.. Sigh.. Hope I'll do well for the Piano Practical Exam tomorrow! I'm so like nervous! I hope everything will be alright yarh.. Hm today's post is long.. Oh yarh Xiao Jie! Take care ok lols.. Hm u have been busy recently so didn't really sms or call you up to check if u r like fine.. Sorry ok.. Though didn't talk much to you on last Friday Taekwondo Lesson, I'm happy as long as I hear ur voice so chirpy and happy can liao.. Indeed last week, to be frank , I miss you alot yarh haha lols.. But u must sacrifice some of my time to ur real stead alright.. I sacrifice larh ok.. Hope everything for u will also b going on in good state hm ok.. I see you happy can liao ler ok.. Take care Xiao Jie<33!
So this post is really long yarh.. That is all like for these few days which I didn't blog.. Take care guys ok! I will update when I really change my attitude! Ok.. Bb..
If my life had been better than sorrow......